I honestly thought Living In A Beautiful Disaster was going to be done and ready to sell by middle of April. When that was in my mind I thought. I would drop the book on May 4, 2018. Products drop on Fridays, so Friday was the date in my mind.
Then I started looking at the date and started doing “math symbolism”. For instance…
If you add 5+4 and 1+8 you get 9 and 9. 99 is how old one of the pieces is in the book. 99 is also the year I graduated high school at 18 years of age.
You add 5, 4 and 18 you get 27. When I was 27, it was 2008 and I seriously thought I wrote some of the best content ever in my personal life. It was in the form of a mixtape called “Thank You…I Try”. Some of the pieces from that project also are in this book. 27 is definitely a pivotal year of my life. Lot growing pains in many aspects.
Take 2018 and subtract 5 and 4, you get 2009. 2009 was one of the hardest years of my life. It was also my official refocus and career change. And it was in December of 2009 when my daughter was conceived. My battles with life, depression, self doubt and lost love and friends all surface in my book.
Needless to say the symbolism of 5-4-18 would have been dope, but it just wasn’t meant to go down that way. By May 4th, I had got the book, but I needed to make an edit to the cover. I caught an error in a piece and I made a couple changes to the gratitude list. Needless to say. It just wasn’t done to my high expectations.
In all that time, I seen a pattern and learned that traditionally, books drop on Tuesdays. I wasn’t going to make May 8th, but May 15th is next. May 15th is my birthday. As my life starts a new year and chapter, I release a book that gives you artistic moments of the last 36…Poetic, right?
It really was all supposed to be this way.