Acknowledging The Test

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It’s difficult when life tests you. Today I’m not sure if I can call it life or the devil himself. Maybe they are both one in the same and people use them as synonyms metaphorically. For the first time in a long time, I’m angry. Very angry. I feel the resistance, the negative energy, the intentional disrespect radiating off of a person and being guided to a situation. I can tell when a person wants to be difficult on purpose and do whatever they can to rattle and break me.

It’s been very hard to stand strong today. It’s hard to act like it doesn’t bother me. I even tried meditating today. It lead to a decent nap but more of the same over all. I have violent images in my mind. I have no solutions to speak. I am operating on 100% emotion internally. I hate these feelings. These feelings are distractions that keep me from my higher vibration. I can not go back to who I willingly was at an earlier time in my life.

I pray I don’t spazz and go haywire. I am pleading within myself to remain the rock I just was 24 hours ago. I’m going to breathe deeply and rise above. I refuse to let an inferior situation defeat me. I am bigger, better and greater than this circumstance. Yes, I am not fully healed from the previous scars. Yes, I do feel some regret of my recent kind gesture, but I absolutely will not lose! I’ve come too far to be taken out. So now I will stand stronger than ever!

God is the only power over me. Nothing and no one else. Only God Reigns.