If Not Now, When?

Been reading about different ways to make “extra money” or achieve “side hustle income” and it got instantly frustrating. What I am learning about myself is I’m checking off a lot of “side hustle boxes” and doing a good number of things that should be earning me more money…and it’s not. I literally am not reaping any benefits from all of the things I’m doing.

It’s crazy cause it feels like I’m making noise in the middle of the desert. Sure, you hear you and it’s obvious you are doing something, but who truly knows? Are you causing a shift? Are you making an impact? Are you seeing the kind of benefits you want from your actions?

Today, my answer to all 3 of those questions are, NO. The answer is no and I’m not so sure how to fix it. I would love for all of this to make sense. I would love to stop spinning my wheels, dedicating so much time and energy to things that are just not paying off. I want a breakthrough and right now I don’t care if the breakthrough leads me to stopping everything I’ve been working on or towards the last 10 or so years. I’m exhausted. I’m spent. I wish I had an answer to the question “When?”

I’m going to be 40 this decade. Somethings really got to give.